Previous Weight (May 6, 2013) : 352lbs
Current Weight: 338Lbs
For someone of my height and weight, the net weight loss should be double, if not triple the 14lbs that it is. I actually got down to 330lbs and then ballooned back up to 359lbs in the span of 10 weeks. The 14 pounds have been in the last 3 weeks though because I was back down to floating between 350-352lbs when they started tapering down my mega-dosage of Prednisone. I kept hoping they’d take me off of it completely, but no such luck. Now that I’m on other medications to help control the RA flare, I don’t need as much Prednisone, but I still need a “maintenance dosage.”
I’m not going to beat myself up anymore than I normally do about the lack of a higher number because for one thing, what useful purpose would it serve and for another, while I’m pretty sure a lot of that net loss is water weight, it’s a loss nonetheless and I’m going to take it.
So where does this leave me? Well here, I’ll show you where it leaves me:
What is Unjury? Well like it says on the tub, it’s medical-grade protein. Between my rheumatologist and bariatric physicians, and a registered dietician, they’ve custom designed a plan for me to replace two meals a day with Unjury and then eat a third meal that consists of no more than 800 calories. It’s really late and we have a long travel day planned tomorrow, so I don’t have enough time to go into detail, but I think I’ve mentioned enough in the past for you to understand that I’m at a pretty critical junction right now where between my joints being at risk not only due to the RA but because of the weight, and the fact that I am pretty sedentary, I was left with little choice but to go on a semi-liquid diet. Because a liquid diet is not ideal, I won’t be staying on it any longer than 6 months. Moving back towards a lifestyle that has regular meals once the 6 months are up is going to have to be carefully orchestrated due to the fact that weight re-gain is a huge risk you run when undertaking something like this. Right now though the risks to my health are such that they outweigh the risks that come with a semi-liquid diet. Until I can move more readily without being in so much pain and risking further damage to my joints, this is what it is.
While I’m nervous about taking this on, I’m more nervous about what happens if I don’t. However, for the first time in a very very very long time, I ready to do this both physically and mentally/emotionally. I’m also working with a woman who is baby-stepping me into a completely alternate way of thinking about crawling out from under all of this fat – or what I mean to say is an alternate way to deal with the psychological and emotional means of crawling out from under all of this fat. There’s a lot of fear that comes with this, when you commit to taking the steps to change your life, and fear is what has pretty much kept me where I’ve been for the last 20+ years. I’m not sure how much I’m supposed to say about it because it’s part of an on-going program she’s developing and writing about, so I’ll just leave things at that.
Physically as far as exercise, my goal is to walk up and down my driveway three times a day and to swim for at least two hours a day. I love to swim so that’s not a problem, but I am ashamed to admit that the walking my driveway thing is painful and, well it’s just incredibly painful. Six weeks from now, depending on the inflammation, we’ll adjust my goal to maybe once (or twice?!?) around the walking/running track at the Y. I’m hoping it will get easier to move, and less painful, with the more weight I lose.
People, if you think there is nothing wrong with being fat, just look at my life. While your weight doesn’t determine your character and it does not reflect on your worth as a human, it is killing you, slowly, maybe even silently, but for sure – it’s limiting the number of days you have left. Living in this body for as long as I have, there’s just no way anyone will ever convince me that you can be 50+lbs over what’s considered a healthy weight for your body, and be healthy. When you have to rent an ECV just to take your kid to an amusement park for the day (granted, my RA has left me with nodules on my hips, and now one that is on my ankle and pressing against my Achilles tendon, it’s not the sole reason I can’t walk an amusement park) because you physically can not move the mass that is your body, or when you have to ask the flight attendant for a seat-belt extender, or when you dread going to see a film at the cinema and pray your husband picks the theatre with the moveable arm rests, there’s no way you can tell me you’re enjoying life and that you’re healthy. To be frank, that’s bullshit.
I’m not going to chronicle every single day with the Unjury because HELLO! That would be as boring as watching paint dry. I’ll update my weight weekly and measurements too. I’ll post an updated full length body photo on Monday. I’ll update photos every month. I think that’s enough, yes?
One final word. This might be a Captain Obvious moment, but because I know how utterly desperate people are to lose weight, I want to repeat my oft-written disclaimer:
Before you undertake any lifestyle change when attempting to lose weight, please consult your own health care provider and don’t rely on something you read on the internet as your guide to making healthy choices, in particular, don’t assume that because I’m super-morbidly obese and beginning a mostly liquid diet, that you should do this too. It goes without saying (but I’ll say it anyhow) that we’re all different and have different needs and different health scenarios. The changes I’m making and will continue to make are probably not the ideal choices for your life. Put the due diligence into researching healthy lifestyle options that fit your own needs and lifestyle, consult with your doctor and then go from there.